It's still surreal.
I own MY on place.
As of yesterday, I have officially been a homeowner for 4 weeks. FOUR WEEKS!
I can believe it's already been 4 weeks... and it's only 4 weeks? Isn't that funny? How timing works.
Anyway, leading up to, the day of and the days after May 27 were a whirlwind. My mom came into town. I bought/closed on my condo. I moved in. I went to the beach to celebrate Gramps' 9th birthday. Oh, and I was working.
HA. It was a lot. Overwhelming. Scary. Nerve-racking. But, so so so SO exciting!
My mom was a godsend. She was ever-patient and worked her tail off. It was pretty much nonstop while she was here, but she just... handled it. She was so excited for me, and helped organize and move things and put things together. I seriously wasn't super stressed because my momma was here. It was the best.
The days and weeks following the move have been a little... weird.
It was weird to be sleeping in this place by myself.
All the new.
No idea where anything is.
Even though this place was my condo, my home... it was definitely not home.
And that has been really hard. Harder than I was expecting it to be. Actually, I don't even think I gave it one thought.
I was so excited to be having my own space. My own place to put all of my belongings. Organize things the way that I want them to be... that I just didn't think about the transition. The fact that everything is going to be empty. And bare. And cold.
And, so not homey.
And then, I was driving home one day and I realized something.
I realized that I was embarrassed.
Guh! I know.
I was embarrassed that my first place is a condo instead of a cute little house. I was embarrassed that I was doing this by myself instead of with a husband. I was embarrassed that I may be paying more than I should be. I was embarrassed. Plain and simple.
And then I read something on the ol' IG the other day, "Focusing on what your life is NOT rather than accepting what it IS, is one of the greatest forms of self sabotage."
That line right there... hit me like a ton of bricks. And I'm still feeling the effects.
That is exactly what I had been doing without even noticing. I was totally focusing on everything other than NOW. What is going on in my life right now. And it was completely sucking the joy away.
I have often said that I'm pretty good at living in the now and being in the moment, but it's kind of disconcerting how quickly that can change. How quickly the devil sweeps in and takes hold of the part of you that doubts and worries and trusts that life is good, and makes everything seem just completely not good enough.
Oh my gosh... I BOUGHT A CONDO! I am 31 years old, living outside of one of the most influential cities in the world, working at one of the top pediatric facilities in the country basically doing my dream job... and I was able to BUY a home. Not only THAT. I have some beautiful people in my life. I have some amazing friends. An awesome family. And am loved by an incredible God.
This life that I am living... it is not exactly how I pictured it would be. But, this IS the life that the Lord has given me, and darn it, isn' that good enough?! Isn't the Lord good enough?
So, I am getting there. I am letting that embarrassment go, and letting excitement and gratefulness take over. Will you pray for me?!
Annnnnnnnnd because I know y'all are dying for SOME pics! :) Just remember, this is transition. And I don't have much furniture. Keep that in mind. :) One day when I have things more organized and have actual furniture, I will try to do a real tour. My comp is making things difficult with pics these days... maybe it's on the frtiz?!
|Master bedroom on inspection day|
|Pretty much what it looks like right now! That carpet is the BEST!|
|Master bath, renovated.|
|With some of my things.|
|Living area, on inspection day.|
|And pretty much now. The tv is out of the box because CABLE. |
And, I have ordered a couch!
|A little shout-out to the awesome windows in my place! All the heart-eyes.|
|Kitchen on inspection day. Yep, with some crazy under cabinet lighting.|
|Ha! Right after I moved in. It's pretty nice looking now.. but not a whole lot has changed.|
My condo is 3 bedrooms, two baths and has a little balcony. I know some of you are curious. It was completely renovated, so it was move-in ready! So, I just have the fun of organizing, buying fun furniture and adorning the walls! I am sure I will need allll the help I can get. :)
Thanks for stopping by!