Oh hey... yup, still enjoying my Auntie time. I just love the scheduling posts business. :)
One of the things that always comes up when I see my family again, for better or for worse, is my acne situation. It's always coming from a place of love and concern, but it's always so awkward when you hear, "Oh, your skin looks great these days!"
Um, really? It's not. But, I appreciate the thought.
It's hard because I STILL HAVE NO SOLUTIONS.
When it comes up, I don't have anything new to say about it. Clearly, I haven't found the magic thing to make my skin beautiful again. Because if I did, the world would already know about it.
And without a doubt, it always comes back to why exactly I stopped taking birth control (ie: the pill) in the first place.
Oh jeez. Yes. I am Catholic, and I don't believe in taking the pill. For many reasons.
But, it's more than that. I care about my overall health. I care about my body. I took birth control for about 8 years. EIGHT YEARS! Every day, putting synthetic hormones in my body. And to be honest, it was the BEST my skin has ever been. I didn't have to worry about always putting makeup on when I walked out the house, or be self conscious that someone was staring at the inflamed blemishes and red blotchiness when they were speaking to me. I didn't have to worry about hugging someone and accidently rubbing my cheek against theirs and fear their disgust when they felt the oil on my skin.
Being 29 and dealing with this is not fun. At all.
But, I also want to be healthy. There is more and more research coming out about the long-term effects of the pill. Cancer. Infertility. Blood clots. Why would I willingly continue to do that to my body? It doesn't make sense. Natural Family Planning (or the Fertility Awareness Method- same as NFP, but you are able to use condoms and the like) has been on the rise to help women know their body's better, to be aware of their cycles and the changes that the hormones can do to your body physically and mentally. It's a beautiful thing. I read somewhere that it's a lifetime skill... not a quick fix. I love that.
It has been amazing to learn about my body in this way. I am not great at charting and such, but I am proud of what my body can do. I just wish I understood it more.
And, I WISH SOMEONE WOULD LISTEN TO ME!
That's all I want. I haven't found any doctor who wants to help me figure out why I have hormonal acne issues (also, I haven't been as committed to looking for one as I should be!). Every.single.time I give them my history and say that the only thing that has ever helped is the pill, but it's no longer an option for me...
I mean, you would think I was telling them that I sell cocaine.
It's humorous, but also really irritating. Our culture is so wrapped up in this pretty little pill that can do no wrong. They have no idea what to do when it's not an option. Clearly, my acne is hormonal as the pill did "help" me. Yet, my blood test came back normal (I have been off the pill for about a year and a half now). I would have expected my androgens to be higher, as that is common reason women deal with acne. And they weren't. And, yet, all you can say is that I am "sensitive" to my hormones... what does that mean exactly?
All I want is for a doctor to say, "hey, I know that you have tried x, y and z in the past, can we give it another shot? Let's see if it works! If not, we will go down another path."
YES! I will love you, who ever you are, if you are willing to work with me. I am not looking for perfect skin, I am just looking for less blemish-y skin!
Have you had issues like this? How did you find quality doctors? Trial and error? Let me know! Cause I am getting motivated to get back on the horse, here. :)