It's so... cliché isn't it? The desires of my Heart.
"Take delight in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart." ~ Psalm 37:4
There are so many things on my heart. So many desires. So much so, my heart aches badly for them sometimes.
I desire to be fully at peace and content.
I desire to love perfectly.
I desire to be married and share this life with someone.
I desire to experience the joys (and frustrations!) of motherhood.
I desire to serve overseas again.
I desire to love my job.
I desire to be unabashedly confident in who I am.
I desire to be able to speak my mind in a loving way.
I desire to be more creative.
I desire to be loved fully and completely.
I desire to laugh first, then cry.
But mostly? I desire you, Lord. I desire to love as you have commanded. I desire to do your will.
Could that life encompass all that I desire?! Absolutely. But, the thing is... my desires may change. They will change. They have changed. Sure, I think most of these will always be on my heart, but others not so much. Isn't that what happens, though?! As we grow and learn and stretch from all of life's experiences, so, too, do our desires.
As I focus more on God and truly take delight in Him, my desires will change to reflect my love for Him. So, yes, He will give us the desires of our heart. But don't be surprised when those desires change, or are completely different from what you had ever thought possible for your life, when you start focusing on Him and Him alone.
Is that scary? Is that stressful? Will we be happy?
Yes... and, yes. :) Trying to figure it out isn't always easy. Sometimes we don't know what we are doing. Is that a desire of my heart, or a desire from someone else? Am I doing enough?
All I know is that I need to keep on keepin' on. Praying. Serving. Loving. Confessing. Praying. Building community. Praying.
This of course isn't to say that just because you have a desire and it hasn't happened yet, that it isn't what God desires for you. Of course not. I guess all I am saying is that, for me, I have found that my greatest desire is God himself, and hope that the rest of my desires lead me to Him, ya know?
Jesus, gentle and humble of heart. Touch our hearts and make them like your own. [from the Litany of the Sacred Heart of Jesus]
With all this heart talk (because when I saw "heart" as the topic this week, "desires" is the first thing to pop in my head!)... joining #BISsisterhood and the Blessed is She linkup!