Patience

Unrelated pic of a winery. :)

Phew!

I am 10 days into my new job!

I AM LOVING IT!

And. I am exhausted. 8:15? The wall. By 9? Craaaaawling into bed. If I am still up around 10? Shoot... I am probably spurting out incoherent sentences. Zombie walking.

Huh, perhaps I shouldn't even be writing this right now. It's currently 8:16. Meh... I'm a rebel. What can I say?! ;)

Starting a new job is crazy, right? LOTS OF NEW. Information overload. Trying to be friendly and get to know people. And just basically trying to figure out what h*** your job IS! I say that in the most light-hearted way, of course.

Because... it's awesome. I am just so happy to be back. Genuinely happy to be there. Right now, at this time, this is where I am supposed to be. It feels good. It feels right.

With all of that, though, I am not immune to the worry or doubts. They creep in every now and again. In ways I wasn't expecting. When I start to gloss over in yet another meeting, thoughts like, will I be good enough? Will I make my old friends/coworkers AND the new ones proud? Can I even do this?

Ya know. Those.

They are fleeting. They are moments. But they are there. I try not to dwell on them. I remind myself that I am at this job for a reason. I was hired because people believe in me. I am a good nurse. I have something to offer.

And. To be patient with myself. I have a tendency to want to do ALL THE THINGS. Get involved with that. Volunteer for that. Help with that committee. Organize the new peeps.

Wait.

No. I need the foundation. I need to learn and re-learn and get the basics down (again). How will I ever be able to fully support my fellow nurses if I don't know what I'm doing? How will they trust me?

Outside of work, I find that I want to do all the things with my new parish. Go to the young adult things. Find my people.

But, wait.

It will come. There is no expectation for me to have a connection with people right away. Build awesome relationships right away. I can't... it just won't happen. I want that (NEED that), but I can't force it. I can't just make those connections happen.

I have to be patient.

I need to take a step back. There is no pressure to make things happen RIGHT.THIS.MINUTE. Nope. That's just silly ol' me thinking so.

Silly, Jen, ;)

Annnnnnd, this needs to end. Entering into crazy mode.

Oh! If you didn't notice... I went for it and bought a domain for the blog! I don't think anything special has to happen, but if you want to be safe and not miss any of my wonderful posts (*note sarcasm*), be sure to add this address into your reader. :)

Mmmkay. G'night!

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4 comments :

  1. The new domain didn't affect my Bloglovin' access! I'm just so happy for you that you're settling into where you feel called to be right now. I can SO relate wanting to do ALL the things at once, but it's so true that taking time is good. Everything will come in its time. Happy for you!

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  2. Girl, I feel ya! My brain gets into DO EVERYTHING mode and I have to slow and calm myself down because there is. no. rush. Have you heard of Margaret Feinberg? She's written a few Bible studies, and one of her mantras is, "Breathe in. Breathe out. God is good. God is on the throne." Need this tattoo'd on my forehead, lol ;)
    Congrats on the domain purchase! Looks like everything transferred smoothly - great job!

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  3. I was totally going to write a post like this last night too as I'm also just under two weeks into my new job, and sometimes, I feel OVERWHELMED! I'll be praying for you that you continue to adjust well - I'm so happy for you that you are enjoying your move thus far! :)

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