There are so many things that I want to share here... but I just don't know how to get them all out of my head. It's not as if I have a lot to catch you up on... it's just that... I have been thinking quite a bit lately, and well... would love to formulate them into blog posts. But, I don't know where to begin.
Here are some random things rolling around in my head. Perhaps one day I will get to expand upon them more. I guess that's what happens when you move, start a new job and try to find a community... your blog gets a little lost. I love this space. I love connecting with you all here. But, sometimes... you can only do so much. Right??
At least for me, anyway.
God's love is so amazing. Amiright?! I just... am so in awe of His love for me. ME. An imperfect person with a sometimes too short temper, who gets frustrated over the silliest things. Who struggles with loving herself through and through. Who decides to do other things, when she knows she should pray. Who looks to others for encouragement and validation about things in life, when really, that should come from God, and God alone. Yet, with all those imperfections... I am so loved. I desire that love first and foremost. It is that love that keeps me going... that comforts me when I am unsure... that allows me to be ok with the fact that I may never get married... that will satisfy all of my desires and longings. That is a great Love, indeed.
Nurses are real-life superheroes. Seriously. I am so damn (sorry!) proud to be a nurse. I am doing some orienting shifts on the floor (my actual role is no longer at the bedside, but I am around the unit, and to best support my fellow nurses I need to know what's up), and let me tell you. I am SO out of practice! Being away from the bedside for over 3 years... shoot. You can tell. Some things have come back, but boy! I have SUCH an appreciation for nursing. The knowledge, the compassion, the running around, the trust, etc etc... it's a lot. It's amazing. It's not for the faint of heart. To all of my nurse friends- YOU ROCK! Thank you for doing the wonderful things that you are doing!
Dangit for community being so hard to find. Ugh. I am still feeling pretty lonely these days. Besides going to work everyday... I have yet to find things to do. I am not saying this as a "whoa is me"... it's just the reality right now. I know it will come. It's just so obvious how important community is when you all of a sudden don't have it anymore. Sure, I have my NAS and BIS... but, nothing compares to real life talk, hugs, laughs and prayer.
No prayer time is no good. I am still trying to come up with a routine... figure out my schedule... blah blah. Anyway, I've realized this before annnnnd again with all of these changes, that if I don't make any time to pray - even 5 minutes - things just don't feel right. I need that down time. I need that chat with God to get some sort of equilibrium. It makes everything else make sense.
There are many other thoughts... but I am watching God's Not Dead (have you seen it?) with my Dad and stepmom, so I'm gonna go! :)
Oh, but pictures... maybe. Hmm... not too many. See, not much going on! :) Only pics of me. Fun times.
|I may or may not have had TOO much coffee this day.|
|My oldest niece turned FIVE a few days ago. FIVE. How did that happen?!|
|Fist PSL of the season!!!|
|Homemade cookies, handwritten note and info about a friends' soon-to-be mission year!|
Pray for all the missionaries around the world!
Have a great week, errbody!