Oh hey there!
So... I took a very sudden and unplanned internet/social media break this past week. Which inadvertently meant blogging, I guess. It wasn't really in the things I wanted to break from. Reading blogs? Yes. But writing them.... I guess I needed a break from that, too.
Anywho... that break. AWESOME.
I was laying awake trying to fall asleep and my mind would not stop. It was going and going... and I had this passing thought- you should take a break from social media and the internet in general.
And that's what I did.
The next morning on my way into work, I listened to the Caritas Podcast where Brigid and Elise interviewed Erica Tighe from Be A Heart. Erica candidly shared her story about alcoholism, depression and anxiety. About overcoming those things. And about working on them everyday.
It was a beautiful story of grace and healing and trust. The girls talked a lot about addictive behaviors, and the internet was brought up again and again. How quickly habits can become addictions if we aren't careful.
Listening to their conversation spoke to my heart and was the perfect confirmation I needed about taking my internet break. Thanks, Jesus. :)
When I was waiting for the shuttle, I had a conversation with a guy that I ride the shuttle with everyday. That day, my head wasn't bent down staring at my glowing screen... I was looking around, taking in the world around me, and connecting with people.
It was so wonderful, you guys. Hard that first day.... and at moments when I was bored (ie. waiting for something, usually), but mostly, I didn't miss it too badly.
Sure, I missed keeping up on all the things, but I realized that I mostly didn't care about knowing all the things. Ya know? I always want to know what's going on with that person or that brand or that company, namely because I always know what's going on. Then, when I stopped being inundated... I realized I didn't have the same need to know urgency.
I kept up with the people and things that were important to me.
Now is the time to purge. To take away some of the noise.
I don't know need to be online as much as I am. I don't need to know all the things. I just don't. I'm pretty sure no one even realized I wasn't around... which, ya know, is humbling. And forces me to reexamine my online presence in and of itself.
What I need is to be present to God. My family. My friends. My community. And that may just look different than it has been.
I'm still trying to figure it out. :)
I hope you all have a had a wonderful and blessed Sunday!
St. Francis of Assisi, pray for us!