Yup... I am still here.
I can give you all sorts of reasons why it has taken me MONTHS to get back here. But... life. Life is life sometimes, ya know?
Blogging (along with 50 thousand other things that I would like to do) is on my list of things that I would really like to incorporate back into my life.
I miss the writing.
I miss the processing I do when I am writing.
I miss the community that I created here way back when.
Basically... I miss you. Anyone who still happens to read this little ditty.
Let me catch you up on life a bit.
I am still loving my job! I am working a lot. Still figuring out some good work/life balance because, let's be honest, I don't want to burn out. And there are days where I feel really stretched.
Being in the nurse educator position has been amazing, challenging and difficult. I am learning so much all the time, and trying to get all the things done. It's different in many ways than what I had imagined it would be. It's better and crazier, but also harder than I thought. I mean, I knew it would be hard, but being in an organization that relies HEAVY on their educators, you are constantly adding things to an already looooooong list of "priorities." It's been a constant back and forth to try and balance and learn how to manage my time. I still feel very much like a new nurse in that respect. So, I like to think it helps me relate even more to my newbie nurses. :)
But, I love my unit. I love my coworkers. I love the organization. I have no regrets making the big move last summer!
The other most recent and exciting news...
I BOUGHT MY OWN HOME!!!!!!!!!
(I would show some pics, but my computer is being really slow and dumb.)
Oh my gosh. I am still partly in shock. But! It was so nice to walk inside today from time at the beach celebrating my Gramps' 90th (90!!) Birthday. It's not very organized. I don't have much furniture. Currently a card table serves as my dining table. No pots or pans.
But, it's mine. ha! MINE. Isn't that the craziest?! I have been an official homeowner for a little over a week, and the shock is wearing off (until that first mortgage payment!). I am getting over all of these feelings of was this wrong? Should I have done this? Shouldn't my first home have been a little house with a yard? Who PAYS for something that basically feels like an apartment?
But... it's a starter. That's what your first home is anyway, right? It's mine! If I want to paint, I will! If I want to do something different in the kitchen, I can! (Not that I will need to at the moment, b/c it's been beautifully updated). If I want to buy that really awesome sofa, I can! This is my place. Not anyone else's. I am going to learn to love it and enjoy it... and I cannot wait until it feels like home.
That's what I hope for the most. It to be home. It's going to take some time and patience on my part. I can't get ALL THE THINGS that I want right now. I just can't. And that's ok. I need to accept that. Be proud of the fact that I was even in a position that I can buy my own little place.
Eep! I hope to share more of all the ups and downs of homeownership here in this space. I have no idea what I was share, honestly. Maybe I can talk about my crazy experience actually buying it? Of course how I choose to design it? I dunno... whatever floats my boat.
I hope to be around here more. Please know that I am praying for you! Will you pray for me, too??
Blessings and hugs,