I'm doing it. Again.
Ok. I signed up for CatholicMatch again.
They sucked me in with their good deal for a year subscription. A YEAR. So, I guess I am committing to that again.
I know it sounds like I am doing this begrudgingly. And that I am not very excited.
It's just that. CM and I? We have a love/hate relationship. Most of my experience with it hasn't been all that great. And I have loooooooooots of years of trying it out. Lots. Is there a point that it gets embarrassing to admit?
Recently, I experienced the joy and beauty of getting to know someone, having them get to know me, being attracted (I mean really attracted) to someone, laughing, letting my guard down, and truly desiring the best for this person... it lit something inside me that I hadn't really experienced for a very long time (if ever). I learned a lot from this little moment in time. And I think I will be forever grateful for it.
The desire to experience that and have it be part of my life was lit.
Then the holidays happened. And I had a bit of a rough patch. And... I'm trying to climb back up.
As I hit the submit button to pay for my subscription, I prayed that it would be a good experience this time. I asked the Lord that it would be ENcouraging instead of DIScouraging. That I will be open to whatever can happen.
I pray for my husband every night. Perhaps I have scrolled through his profile already. Or maybe he will sign up soon? Or maybe I will just meet him the good ol' fashioned way- at church, at a Catholic event, or the infinite options for IRL meetings.
This is just another step to make it possible for me to date. To get to know someone. To meet my husband.
As an aside. Not everyone has to try online dating. It's one of my BIGGEST pet peeves when people suggest online dating (when you are still single after all these years) is THE thing that will help with your singleness. That's just crazy. I know many people who have met their beloveds online. But, I also know many people like me who have been in the online dating world for so much of their adult life annnnnnd still single.
God has a plan. So long as we single people are fully and completely open to that plan, things will unfold as they are meant to. Including when and how we meet our spouse. Keep praying. Keep hoping. And keep doing what you need to do to put yourself out there.
Pray for me, ok?
Pray that CM and I can have an ok relationship this time around.
And that the Lord's will be done.
For fun... here are my previous online dating posts and tips. Because- GET IT TOGETHER DUDES! Write back. Ask to meet in person. Let's get this going.
Online Dating Tips I
Online Dating Tips II
What are your thoughts about online dating?! Tried it and loved it? Tried it and hated it? Want to try it?